I have wanted to share the gospel since I heard it was possible for me to serve a mission after my conversion at the age of 16. As a convert in Sweden where the church was very small, I did not know how to go about applying. Just as I turned 21 and thought seriously about asking our branch president what to do, I instead was on my way to California to meet Craig and his family. I was supposed to stay three weeks, but we married six weeks after I arrived. I did not serve a proselyting mission, but found a different way to serve - I had Craig and our beautiful children. It was a wonderful trade, but I love the gospel and hoped I would eventually be able to give back for all the blessings I have received from my Heavenly Father and the gospel.
Craig and I feel blessed that we are healthy enough to now serve as senior missionaries, and although I miss my family tremendously, I am happy to have my favorite person and companion to serve with. We have been married almost 46 years, but it is amazing how much you still learn about each other when you are together 24/7. It seems we have grown closer in the eight months we have served so far.
I thought of Craig as I was reading a talk by Elder Ronald M. Barcellos from the October 2025 General Conference called "The Lord Looketh On the Heart." I love this talk; it is a great reminder of how to live a Christlike life by improving the spiritual health of our hearts. These are his suggestions:
💗 "Strengthen your relationship with Christ"
He says that "the Savior warned that while many are called by Him, few are chosen 'because their hearts are set so much upon the things of this world, and [they] aspire to the honors of men.' Do I make the Savior a priority in my life? Is my eye single to His glory in all that I do?" Are we really working on building our character and becoming more Christlike, or obeying for the sake of obedience?
Elder Barcellos also suggests we treasure up the scriptures in our hearts. Scripture study is not always easy to fit into a busy day, but that and prayer are the best ways to get to know Christ and how to become more like Him. Some days we have more time than others. On busy days, do we take the time to ponder on even one verse? To be honest, it is something I personally struggle with. Although it may not be ideal, listening to the scriptures has helped me tremendously in my studies.
He quotes one of my favorite scriptures: "Have ye spiritually been born of God? Have ye received His image in your countenances? Have ye experienced this mighty change in your hearts?" I love the visual of having His image in our countenances and can see that happening as we change our hearts. There is a light shining from those who strive to be like Christ.
💗 "Serve God and others . . . with a sincere heart and with real intent."
Elder Barcellos says that "The quality of our thoughts and words is a good indicator of the purity of our hearts." He also reminds us that the Savior warned Samuel that "man looketh on the outward appearance, but the Lord looketh on the heart." Are we serving others because we want to be more Christlike, or because we want others to see how good we are? What is our motive?
💗 "Align your will with His"
"I, the Lord, will judge all men according to their works, according to the desires of their hearts." "Our Heavenly Father desires more than mechanical acts of obedience and service from His children." He knows what is in our hearts better than we do. We are blessed that we have the capability to learn and grow to help our hearts become more spiritually healthy.
"But he that doeth not anything until he is commanded, and receiveth a commandment with doubtful heart, and keepeth it with slothfulness, the same is damned." That does not sound pleasant, but again, we are blessed with a kind Savior who loves us and knows that we are here on earth to learn. Once our hearts are aligned with His we are more likely to understand what He needs and how to do His will without needing to be commanded in everything.
This talk reminds me of something C.S Lewis wrote in Mere Christianity. In it he talks about The Cardinal Virtues. He argues that God wants more than mere obedience; He cares more about our character, and wants us to become people who naturally produce obedient behavior. Isolated acts of obedience do not make us virtuous, but character is revealed in consistency. I read somewhere that a poor tennis player might hit a great shot occasionally, but that does not make him a good player. The best way to become consistently good is to listen to Jesus Christ our teacher, practice what He teaches us, and to hopefully eventually "experience [a] mighty change in [our] hearts."
I am grateful to have a missionary, as well as life, companion who consistently strives to become better, is good and loving, who prefers to serve and counsel behind the scenes, who takes joy in helping others shine, who expects more from himself than others. My companion is honorable, and one of the most honest people I know. Being with him makes me want to become better, and I am grateful to my Heavenly Father who guided him to me. I cannot imagine a better person to serve with. My prayer is that if you do not already have this kind of companion, you will find him or her.
Elder Barcello's talk:
https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/general-conference/2025/10/14barcellos?lang=eng